What is perplexing about life & love, is that it's always changing.
Change is good-most of the time.
Sometimes it's hard to see what's right in front of you-or the lack of....and we bury ourselves into denial.
Things that you thought you had, are now gone, and you don't know how you lost it and when you lost it.
You give yourself excuses so you don't have to live in fear of the unknown...
We all know that fear.
What if I'm always alone? What if my dreams never come true?
I listen to these thoughts in my own head and believe it is nonsense!
I've realized that only we can make our dreams come true...by not wanting so much.
I see many faces of people on the streets that look like their life isn't filled with enough happiness.
So they go shopping.
So they go on vacations.
So they buy gadgets and gizmos.
So they buy fancy cars that are more expensive than their damn house!
Sometimes I am guilty of such pleasures. I admit.
But I do my best to not let these silly notions become a part of my ultimate happiness.
No one or anything else can make you happy, but yourself.
Happiness comes from within, and it comes from the spiritedness of those around you.
It is not constant, but it is not impossible to find, even when the world is spinning and you think that you'll never be "happy" again.
I know I've been in that deep dark pit, alone and hurting, and reaching for anyone that is willing to come down to me and grab my hand, and show me love...
Thankfully those days are now some years behind me...I've grown so much and become a stronger woman.
Especially now, when I see that I deserve a full ray of sunshine, rather than a peek in the clouds...
I deserve to be in full bloom, and not sitting, wilting, and waiting for the sun to come out...
The clouds are parting now..."photo above done by: me, myself, and I"
